justjessicaaaa

07:11 am: I haven't been this happy in sooooooooooooo long. My life is so amazing right now. I can't even begin to describe it......

08:29 am: I hate $$$
Its taking all that I can not to freak out right now.
I'm so overwhelmed with bills, and money its not even funny. I've been planning a trip to puerto rico with my family and Jordan for like 8 months now, and me being the procrastinator that I am I haven't saved any money to spend there. And on top of everything I still have bills to pay before and right after I get back. Annnd on top of everything my car broke down on sunday, and the part I need to fix it is 350$. Not to mention how much labor and everything else is gonna cost for someone to fix it. My mom isn't in a position to help me out, neither is my grandma. So I'm going to have to turn to my father, the only person who's never helped me out in my life. I hate asking someone I dislike so much for help. I'm dreading it actually.
Ok I guess I can stop bitching now. I just needed to vent before I go crazy...

03:45 pm: I never use this thing...
I'm sooo excited about my birthday (and brittanys) on saturday. Its going to be a lot of fun! Kegs and hunch punch! Mmmmmm! I just need to make a good $100-150 between now and saturday. Which I highly doubt will happen.....thank you hurricane fay! NOT.
I had such a shitty night last night. My sales were 450, and I made 39$. Fucking canadians....
I don't know why I'm bitching so much.
Anways...
After kenny chesney I'm pretty sure I'm gonna slow down a looooot on drinking. I'm seriously getting a beer belly and its not cute. And I'm pretty sure this whole drinking every night can't be good for my liver.

12:47 pm:

Ughh..
So why when you can have something so easily you don't really want it....like you think if it dissapeared you'd be ok. And then the second it did just that, you want it more than ever?
I hate how life works.

03:26 pm: i have no idea why im posting this. i never use this thing. i don't really have anything to say...
except i wish it was summer already, so i can go to the beach and angies everyday. and be tan as fuck. but most importantly get my license back...only 4 more months. i miss jordan. i hate working. i hate canadians. hahah this is so random

08:58 pm:

Back where i started. 
Amazingggggg....
haha

10:49 am: :]

A lot has changed in the past month...but for the better. I can honestly say that I haven't been this happy in a very long time!
It just proves that everything happens for a reason. And sometimes change isn't so bad.

One day when im not feeling so lazy im going to upload some pictures.........

02:16 pm: wow
ive done a lot of shitty stuff these past couple of months that i'm not too proud of.
i really need some self control.  or maybe i just need to grow up....

12:45 am:

can things ever work out how i fucking want them to???
seriously!!!!!????

03:04 pm: i feel so fucking creepy right now.

i'm never drinking "bling bling again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

12:23 am: whatever.

i never use this thing...and i've had it for foreverrrrr.
i'm just super bored and there's nothing to do tonight.
i hate when people cancel plans.

summer's been pretty fun so far. just partyin and what not. 
i seriously love my friends.  and especially our drunken nights. haha
i'm just pretty stoked my birthday is coming up...only like 40 more days.
i can't believe i'm going to be 19. that's so fucking weird.
i really want to rent a hotel room on the beach or maybe stay at the omni or something.
all i know is i'm just going to be wasted!!!!!!!!!

and i'm probably going to apply at longhorn or something this week. found out angelos is probably closing...which isn't such a suprise. i made $21 dollars tonight. hahaha wooooow. 
and i want to buy a newer/better car really soon...so i definately need to find a new place of employment a.s.a.p.!

i'm really starting to hate boys. well maybe not all boys...just one. and maybe it's not so much hate as it is just being tired of everything...like being ignored one minute, and then the next i'm like his favorite person. 
i hate the way he can treat me the way he does, and i'm still completely in love him.
ugghhhhhh it's frustrating.
but whatever..

well..that's basically all that's been on my mind lately...